I am DONE with religion!! I am tired of living under a set of rules. I am tired of not doing such and such and do such and such. I am tired of living under the law. The original intent of the law was to provide rules in which to live a life pleasing to God. But, no matter how hard I try the sin nature in me causes me to fail. The law was given to show us our sin, the law was not meant to get us to God. No matter how many rules I try to live under, I will never be able to live a perfect sinless life. I am not capable of living a sinless life on my own. I AM A SINNER, I AM A ROTTEN BEING RIGHT DOWN TO THE CORE. The law screams this truth to me everyday. All religion really is a set of rules that one is supposed to live but one can not live by. The solution to my problem, our problem, in not more religion or more rules but a relationship. What I truly need and desire is a relationship with God through the righteousness of Christ. I am done trying to please God by living under the law; I am going to start living the Christian life as a relationship between God and I and not by rules.

Out of this desire for a relationship with God through his Son, emerges a deep desire to be intimate with God. Look at Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden. They were naked before God and each other and they felt no shame. However, because of the fall we lost the intimacy Adam and Eve had with God and on top of that we feel shame towards one other and God because of our sin. In my life this shame about sin prevents me from being honest with God and with other believers. This shame, my sin, the lies the devil puts in my heart all rob me of a personal intimacy with God. I truly desire to be intimate with God, I want to be his child, I want to be loved by him. Love so deeply and perfectly that I am not afraid of anything. I want to be intimate with God, so much more intimate with God than a husband and wife could ever dream to be. The only problem I have is I don’t know how to be intimate with God. Yet, I know of at least one barrier in my life that is hindering my intimacy with God and that is not trusting him like I should. I have a trust issue with God. Pray for me to learn how to trust God.